Hidden Belief

When you look into the eyes of the beloved

you see the hurt

you see the pain

yet you don't understand the true pain

for you see the outside

you see what they portrait

holding a mask is there best job

being a gift giver and not the gift

you cling

asking for more

when he above is wondering when you are coming to him

is this the pain

that they said you will endure

is this the struggle

each human must face

with the changing seasons I break a tear

for you and I are departed

and I must take my step higher

this is my Goodbye

my farwell to the tears of the past

and my smile to the new sunshine

Please Excuse Me

Excuse me! Excuse me!

Is It just me or is my path blocked

Blocked with the haters

The Distractions

The Falls

Excuse me! Excuse me!

Can you not pull me down

Can you uplift me

Can you spare me your time

Can you give me a breathe

Excuse me! Excuse me!

What have I done to you

Did you wrong

Have I left you

Am I different

PLease Excuse me!

As I take the place God has given me

Excuse me for not waiting

Excuse me for taking the narrow path

Excuse me for wanting something different

Excuse me if I never said I love you

Excuse me if I never cooked for you

Please Excuse me!

If I walk with my head high

Please Excuse me!

Because I parents taught me manors

Please Excuse me!

Because I wont change for you

Please Excuse me!

For Using the voice God gave me

Please Excuse me!

If I strive for the best and nothing less

I'm Sure you say No No Excuse me!

So If so

Thank you!

For God has knocked at the door

But I showed up instead of him

Busting it wide open

And waving for others to follow

Please Excuse me!

If my crew has a dream

Please Excuse me!

Cause I have EXCUSED YOU!

If These Walls Could Talk

If these walls could talk

They would tell my love for music

They would tell of my anger

and the fighting

If these walls could talk

They would tell it all

Could they speak of my struggle

Could they say I am grateful

Could they say I praise him

Could they say I remember Home

If these walls could talk

Would they bring out my past

Make me cry

Make me stand still in time

If These walls could talk

Would it say You have sinned

How could you be Child of God

If these walls could talk

Could it hand me the judgement I hand myself

If these walls could talk

Would it say the Things to hurt me

If these walls could talk

What would they say

For if could God spoke through the Walls

What would he say

For the walls are like God

Always there

Yet Quite

Resentful, in the deepest moment

If God Spoke

What would he say

Would he comment on the Walls

For If these walls could talk

I wonder

Would anything beautiful come from it

The Tears running down the sides

The Visions of past Sins

The Oh so many defeats I stand with

If these walls could talk What would they say

May I Take You Back

May I Take you Back

Back to the time when we could dream

When we would sit on the phone

when we would watch movies

When we would speak lovely things

May I take you back

to when we would ask to go out on a date

To when I never was afraid of my boys

Talking about my hand touching yours

May I Take you Back

To when I loved being around you twenty four seven

Cause of the things you made my mind do

May I Take you Back

To when I took my vow

To Never have sex

to respect each lady

May I take you back

To Prom Night

Seeing your smile

May I Take you Back

To the first night I cooked for you

May I take you back

To when I Gave you good feelings

To When you got everything you ever wanted

to My Family loving you and yours me

May I take you back to the first kiss

On the beach sunlight

With everyone watching

May I take you back

To One in Million By Aaliyah

To Four Page Letter By Aaliyah

May I Take you back

To the Movie nights

Laughing and tickling

Since it is in the past

I have to forget

I love to write about this

Yet May I take you back

Makes me wish

Wish of the things that may come

SO May the things that took you back take you forward

Make a WIsh

SO that this is our

Take back poem.....

The Thing about you

The Thing About You

Is You Came back

When You weren't suppose too

You Came to my door

saying I am the only one you want

I am the only one that you can love

The Thing about you

Is that you Have so much I don't deserve

I should be going back to my ways

The thing about you

is that you are the only thing I want

Not the game

Not the Fame

Baby I just want you

With all the things from the past

How may I want my way

When the thing about you

Is you are so important to me

I think the word Love isn't big enough

How May I talk to an angel

When the angel runs away

I just want to feel the glow from heaven

You bring into the room

How May I say

Hello to you

In a room full of dudes

Wanting the wrong thing

All I want is the one

WHo is the only one for me

How may I say

Regardless the distance

I will take cloud nine

to reach the mountain which you stand

How may I Say

My faults are the cracks

That make the earth shake

I have regrets

But here I stand

With my faults

I want to get it right

How may I say

Love is spread like butter

to thin or to much

No matter how long it takes to say my feelings

I will forever be yours

How may things go

I never can say

I stand behind you with my love

and your grace

Cause Here I stand

With the thing about you

is how you come back around

The Thing about you

I have to say is my will to hear you

The thing about you

Is I will forever be yours

All That To Me

I cry because he blessed me

I praise cause he kept me

I speak his name cause he birthed me

Why do you praise!

God has done so much

I can't find a way

to say thank you

without tearing

his mercy has me here

I have to kneel down

I have to give him all

God you been here

You been there

Not a leaf or wind blow

You been around for the long haul

I just am grateful

I say thank you

I cry for your grace

I say basically in all sins

you never turned away

Changed my heart

Changed my mind

Changed my personality

I call you alpha

I call you omega

I call you Holy

I call you my everything

God I praise you

And I say thank You

I cry because God Has never left me

I praise him

I say Hallelujah

I say You are awesome

and God I hope you enlarge

Everyone of my friends territory

Bless them beyond measure

God you are all that to me and more

Thank You!

I Say Yes

I stand here at the cross roads asking God what is it he wants me to do. He has told me that in everyones life we must make choices. In that choice we become closer to him or we become a observer of what could happen. I notice that it is amazing how he turns your life around when you really don't think is the right time. He does it when the times seems to confuse you or take you in a solo role.

He does this to make you dependent on him. Leaving your friends and family to come closer to him. To learn he is the reason for each season. He is the only food, source of nutrients needed to make a way. For he has done it many times without your knowledge.

I stand here writing this in the wii hours of the night saying God has a reason for each season. You may not know me. You may never know my story. But I will say God has been my best friend. My life vest. My alarm clock. Because He is always there to make you better. He may make you fall or land on your knees. But in that position you must see that God is setting you up to look up at him and see his greatness.

You can not look at God while standing and say how great he is. Those who have been on the ground can tell you how awesome God is. He encourages you by showing you someone elses testimony.

To my mother and father. I am speaking greatest to you and prosperity. For you have put wisdom in your children and the way you raised us is to never give up.

To my God moms and God fathers. May God bless your spirit because you have been a straight pump for me and many others to continue to do the right thing.

To my extended Family. God has so much in store for you. He just needs you to reach out to him. He needs you to accept the things he has put infront. He wants you to grab the truth and the light.

To my friends. I speak Gods growth and Gods guidance into your life. He may not come when you want him. But remember he is always on time. I also ask that God gives you the wisdom to know the time for each season.

I ask God to protect each of you. And I ask God to hear your Yes upon say it. I pray God covers everything in which your mind, business, and soul wants to do.

This is my pray for you and I pray God hears this and spreads this across the country!

MY HEART AND SOUL SAYS YES TO GOD! AND I SUBMIT TO YOUR WILL AND I WILL OBEY EVERYTHING YOU WANT ME TO DO. FOR I HAVE MADE UP IN MY MIND THAT I SAY YES TOO YOU. YOU BEING MY HEART. YOU BEING MY MIND. YOU BEING MY MOUTH. I SAY LEAD ME TO THE WAY YOU WANT ME TO GO. IF THERE IS ANYTHING YOU WANT TO CHANGE IN ME. GOD I WANT YOU TO DO SO.

GOD LET YOUR WILL BE DONE! MY SOUL SAYS YES!

Who

I was told to stand

i was told i was just a friend

i was told to be just like you

then i stood back

became wiser and realized you where my heart

my soul

my dream

and passion taking my over

as we hold convos over hours

Just tell me how i make you

for the knees are weak

taking me to ground

knowing i missing you

is missing your touch

your comfort

and i see that the thing

you make me turn into

is special

special cause its for you

my love

my new journey partner

my little one

my baby girl....

I Want

i wanted to tell you so much

i wanted to give you all

but you choose others

you went right when i went left

i wanted you to be the right one

i wanted you to be my queen

yet you choose the other way

i want to take you to the moon

i want to be the first and last phone call

i want you in the arms

i want to not have sex till i put the ring on it

you are the love

you are the air

you are my smile

you keep my dreams full

i listen to love songs

when you are not here

just to keep you in mind

staying up late to keep your vision in my eyes

broken promises are re filled

and in your tears

i come to wipe them

and put a smile on your face

cause i love you

I want to tell you

I don't want to lose you

my dream

my love

my heart

Standing STill

I stand in the road

trying to find a ride

to the next destination

hoping to catch a glismp

of what i thought was beauty

turning left and right

only to realize its a one way street

looking back i want to go in reverse

but the laws say forward progress

I stand in the road

dazzed by what my brother call lust

I imaged having just a piece of your crust

in all i breathe long and hard

seeing you walk the long way

can someone remove me from me pain

knowing that you are acting

to show the crack in my armor

Talking about nothing

we sat on the phone

I stand to realize you have changed

while i stayed the same

candle light dinners

cooking over a stove

massages of the feet

I stand still

you knowing alot

me knowing alot

i turn

to see i have nothing

car on E

plane can't take off

feet stuck in quick sand

I stand knowing we are done

and i say goodbye

but stand waiting for love

standing still