Saturday, October 31, 2009

Hidden Belief

When you look into the eyes of the beloved
you see the hurt
you see the pain
yet you don't understand the true pain
for you see the outside
you see what they portrait
holding a mask is there best job
being a gift giver and not the gift
you cling
asking for more
when he above is wondering when you are coming to him
is this the pain
that they said you will endure
is this the struggle
each human must face
with the changing seasons I break a tear
for you and I are departed
and I must take my step higher
this is my Goodbye
my farwell to the tears of the past
and my smile to the new sunshine

Monday, October 26, 2009

Please Excuse Me

Excuse me! Excuse me!
Is It just me or is my path blocked
Blocked with the haters
The Distractions
The Falls
Excuse me! Excuse me!
Can you not pull me down
Can you uplift me
Can you spare me your time
Can you give me a breathe
Excuse me! Excuse me!
What have I done to you
Did you wrong
Have I left you
Am I different
PLease Excuse me!
As I take the place God has given me
Excuse me for not waiting
Excuse me for taking the narrow path
Excuse me for wanting something different
Excuse me if I never said I love you
Excuse me if I never cooked for you
Please Excuse me!
If I walk with my head high
Please Excuse me!
Because I parents taught me manors
Please Excuse me!
Because I wont change for you
Please Excuse me!
For Using the voice God gave me
Please Excuse me!
If I strive for the best and nothing less
I'm Sure you say No No Excuse me!
So If so
Thank you!
For God has knocked at the door
But I showed up instead of him
Busting it wide open
And waving for others to follow
Please Excuse me!
If my crew has a dream
Please Excuse me!
Cause I have EXCUSED YOU!

If These Walls Could Talk

If these walls could talk
They would tell my love for music
They would tell of my anger
and the fighting
If these walls could talk
They would tell it all
Could they speak of my struggle
Could they say I am grateful
Could they say I praise him
Could they say I remember Home
If these walls could talk
Would they bring out my past
Make me cry
Make me stand still in time
If These walls could talk
Would it say You have sinned
How could you be Child of God
If these walls could talk
Could it hand me the judgement I hand myself
If these walls could talk
Would it say the Things to hurt me
If these walls could talk
What would they say
For if could God spoke through the Walls
What would he say
For the walls are like God
Always there
Yet Quite
Resentful, in the deepest moment
If God Spoke
What would he say
Would he comment on the Walls
For If these walls could talk
I wonder
Would anything beautiful come from it
The Tears running down the sides
The Visions of past Sins
The Oh so many defeats I stand with
If these walls could talk What would they say

May I Take You Back

May I Take you Back
Back to the time when we could dream
When we would sit on the phone
when we would watch movies
When we would speak lovely things
May I take you back
to when we would ask to go out on a date
To when I never was afraid of my boys
Talking about my hand touching yours
May I Take you Back
To when I loved being around you twenty four seven
Cause of the things you made my mind do
May I Take you Back
To when I took my vow
To Never have sex
to respect each lady
May I take you back
To Prom Night
Seeing your smile
May I Take you Back
To the first night I cooked for you
May I take you back
To when I Gave you good feelings
To When you got everything you ever wanted
to My Family loving you and yours me
May I take you back to the first kiss
On the beach sunlight
With everyone watching
May I take you back
To One in Million By Aaliyah
To Four Page Letter By Aaliyah
May I Take you back
To the Movie nights
Laughing and tickling
Since it is in the past
I have to forget
I love to write about this
Yet May I take you back
Makes me wish
Wish of the things that may come
SO May the things that took you back take you forward
Make a WIsh
SO that this is our
Take back poem.....

The Thing about you

The Thing About You
Is You Came back
When You weren't suppose too
You Came to my door
saying I am the only one you want
I am the only one that you can love
The Thing about you
Is that you Have so much I don't deserve
I should be going back to my ways
The thing about you
is that you are the only thing I want
Not the game
Not the Fame
Baby I just want you
With all the things from the past
How may I want my way
When the thing about you
Is you are so important to me
I think the word Love isn't big enough
How May I talk to an angel
When the angel runs away
I just want to feel the glow from heaven
You bring into the room
How May I say
Hello to you
In a room full of dudes
Wanting the wrong thing
All I want is the one
WHo is the only one for me
How may I say
Regardless the distance
I will take cloud nine
to reach the mountain which you stand
How may I Say
My faults are the cracks
That make the earth shake
I have regrets
But here I stand
With my faults
I want to get it right
How may I say
Love is spread like butter
to thin or to much
No matter how long it takes to say my feelings
I will forever be yours
How may things go
I never can say
I stand behind you with my love
and your grace
Cause Here I stand
With the thing about you
is how you come back around
The Thing about you
I have to say is my will to hear you
The thing about you
Is I will forever be yours

All That To Me

I cry because he blessed me
I praise cause he kept me
I speak his name cause he birthed me
Why do you praise!
God has done so much
I can't find a way
to say thank you
without tearing
his mercy has me here
I have to kneel down
I have to give him all
God you been here
You been there
Not a leaf or wind blow
You been around for the long haul
I just am grateful
I say thank you
I cry for your grace
I say basically in all sins
you never turned away
Changed my heart
Changed my mind
Changed my personality
I call you alpha
I call you omega
I call you Holy
I call you my everything
God I praise you
And I say thank You
I cry because God Has never left me
I praise him
I say Hallelujah
I say You are awesome
and God I hope you enlarge
Everyone of my friends territory
Bless them beyond measure
God you are all that to me and more
Thank You!

I Say Yes

I stand here at the cross roads asking God what is it he wants me to do. He has told me that in everyones life we must make choices. In that choice we become closer to him or we become a observer of what could happen. I notice that it is amazing how he turns your life around when you really don't think is the right time. He does it when the times seems to confuse you or take you in a solo role.
He does this to make you dependent on him. Leaving your friends and family to come closer to him. To learn he is the reason for each season. He is the only food, source of nutrients needed to make a way. For he has done it many times without your knowledge.
I stand here writing this in the wii hours of the night saying God has a reason for each season. You may not know me. You may never know my story. But I will say God has been my best friend. My life vest. My alarm clock. Because He is always there to make you better. He may make you fall or land on your knees. But in that position you must see that God is setting you up to look up at him and see his greatness.
You can not look at God while standing and say how great he is. Those who have been on the ground can tell you how awesome God is. He encourages you by showing you someone elses testimony.
To my mother and father. I am speaking greatest to you and prosperity. For you have put wisdom in your children and the way you raised us is to never give up.
To my God moms and God fathers. May God bless your spirit because you have been a straight pump for me and many others to continue to do the right thing.
To my extended Family. God has so much in store for you. He just needs you to reach out to him. He needs you to accept the things he has put infront. He wants you to grab the truth and the light.
To my friends. I speak Gods growth and Gods guidance into your life. He may not come when you want him. But remember he is always on time. I also ask that God gives you the wisdom to know the time for each season.
I ask God to protect each of you. And I ask God to hear your Yes upon say it. I pray God covers everything in which your mind, business, and soul wants to do.
This is my pray for you and I pray God hears this and spreads this across the country!


I was told to stand
i was told i was just a friend
i was told to be just like you
then i stood back
became wiser and realized you where my heart
my soul
my dream
and passion taking my over
as we hold convos over hours
Just tell me how i make you
for the knees are weak
taking me to ground
knowing i missing you
is missing your touch
your comfort
and i see that the thing
you make me turn into
is special
special cause its for you
my love
my new journey partner
my little one
my baby girl....

I Want

i wanted to tell you so much
i wanted to give you all
but you choose others
you went right when i went left
i wanted you to be the right one
i wanted you to be my queen
yet you choose the other way
i want to take you to the moon
i want to be the first and last phone call
i want you in the arms
i want to not have sex till i put the ring on it
you are the love
you are the air
you are my smile
you keep my dreams full
i listen to love songs
when you are not here
just to keep you in mind
staying up late to keep your vision in my eyes
broken promises are re filled
and in your tears
i come to wipe them
and put a smile on your face
cause i love you
I want to tell you
I don't want to lose you
my dream
my love
my heart

Standing STill

I stand in the road
trying to find a ride
to the next destination
hoping to catch a glismp
of what i thought was beauty
turning left and right
only to realize its a one way street
looking back i want to go in reverse
but the laws say forward progress
I stand in the road
dazzed by what my brother call lust
I imaged having just a piece of your crust
in all i breathe long and hard
seeing you walk the long way
can someone remove me from me pain
knowing that you are acting
to show the crack in my armor
Talking about nothing
we sat on the phone
I stand to realize you have changed
while i stayed the same
candle light dinners
cooking over a stove
massages of the feet
I stand still
you knowing alot
me knowing alot
i turn
to see i have nothing
car on E
plane can't take off
feet stuck in quick sand
I stand knowing we are done
and i say goodbye
but stand waiting for love
standing still